So I decided to make my way out to commerce casino today ($500), mainly due to the fact of being pretty burnt out on online poker.  Nothing really went my way.  Won a a few small pots at the beggining holding my chip average at about 4k.  Lost a couple pots and got down to about 2.8k at 50/100. till this hand came up.

4 limpers and im in the BB with KhJh.. I really wanted to raise but these were the type of guys that would limp call anything so I just pushed my blind in.

the flop came q,2h,3h

I check

Middle aged asian man bets 350

3 folds

I raise to 1150

guy thinks and pushes me all in and shows q8 and holds..

Hopefully this is a lesson to me not to bluff but I thought this was a really good spot to make this play because I think that calling would not  be a  very good play with my stack size.  I was pretty sure he would fold most weak queens and pairs, because this was a 5-way pot.. but he had a solid read on me apparently.  Also the ace of hearts was exposed so he couldnt have the nut flush draw which made my hand look better and make him think its less likely for me to have a flush draw.. But obv amateurs don’t look that deep into hands.. so I guess that makes me the amateur today :)…Anyways I am not dissapointed at all because I was about a coinflip to double up, or back to over 4k if he folded… I just know im capable of grinding a little harder next time.. so I plan on doing that.

Anyways its been a pretty bad year with online poker so far.  Havent  been playing much but definately in the red for the year

So ive been taking a from tournaments because I felt like I was playing like crap.. I was also supposed go to the pca but i figured id save the money and grind in hopes to play a bunch of la poker classic events (im happy with my decision not to go… because if i didnt cash, i believe i would get in the make up mindset for the 15k trip, which would not do me well).  I really dont understand why i cant just play good.  I cosistanly make stupid plays for alot of money.. But I differ some stupid plays over other ones.. There are some plays where I get this feeling in my gut that says theres not much upside to this and you have to incur alot of risk and i just go all in anyways (and this feeling is pretty dead on i have noticed).. I have blown a ton of money this last week by just calling ang going all in for no apparent reason.. I relly need to fix this.. Although I did have a winning week.. I am not satisfied because i have made some huge mistakes in 5/10 which i seemingly cant get over.. I let these hands linger in my brain and cause me to make other stupid player because I am not paying attention.. Now that I have brought this to mine and the worlds attention that I have been playing like an idiot.. Im going to set things straight tomorrow and see how long I can hang on.  Please somehow let me win a major tomorrow