So I felt pretty good going into  todays session after my previous 2 comeback wins.  So I start off my session making a bad call and getting down about 600.  Its ok I have momemtum I get it back.  All the sudden I notice a guy at my 3/6 table going all in on flops with absolutely nothing and he kept sucking out and was up to like 3k.  Anyways, I pick up AT hearts and raise to 24 and get 2 callers.  Flop k85 two hearts, first guy checks, I bet 32, donkey goes all in for 3k, fold, and I call.  I felt like I had to make the call because he has done this with nothing multiple times.  He has 54 and holds for a 1.2k pot.  I rebuy and pick up 77 a few hands later. I open up for 18 on the button and the donkey goes all in.  I wanted to call but it was a 600 so I called my brother in and he bought half my action.  Fortunately, I heald against his k10 and my stack was up to 1200.  A minute later I open up early to 24 with jj and the donkey calls right behind me.  Flop comes q58, I bet 32 he raised to 150, I call.  Turn 2, I check, he bets pot, I go all in for my last 700, he calls with k6 with a flush draw and I hold.  Anyways eventually he was down to 990 and on a limped pot I was in the big blind with a2 dd.  Flop a59, i bet 30, he raised to 70, i raised to 150, he called.  Turn came a blank, I checked to him, he went all in, I snapped, he had 56, I hold. 

Anyways after this he put the rest of his bankroll in at 177.63, this move always amuses me.  Anyways, right after this rebuy, a player next to me opens up for 30, I smooth call with ak, donkey goes all in for 177.63, guy protects with an all in for 600, and I win against donkey 22 and protectors aj.  Anyways this made my day.  This guy had to have been drunk or his girlfriend logged on and busted his account because he was ignoring her.. I don’t know.  Anyways, Im starting to feel some momentum…

Yesterday I got off to a really bad start in my games.  I decided to play a  little bit of 5 /10 which I have been trying to avoid lately.  Once again it didn’t go well.  I grinded that game along with 5 other 2/4 games and lost about 1300 in the first hour or two.  Anyways I was stuck down about this much, and felt like I wasnt going anywhere  I felt like I was about to do something really stupid and loose alot of money.  So I decided to take a breather and refocus and come back in a couple hours and stick to 1/2, 2/4. 

I got back on my computer a couple hours later and the games were really soft.  I really didnt get to many huge hands but I was able to grind out a bunch of pots and tons of rake over the 5 hour session.  Anyways, I ended up finishing up 800 for the day, but it felt alot better then some of my bigger wins of my life. 

It gives me alot of confidence going into my games today knowing that I was able to over come my losses in smaller games, so ill just stick to those ones today.

After the main event I had tons of confidence in tournaments and tried to sway that momentum into online tournaments… and had some very poor results.  After washing another sunday a week ago i decided its time to get back to cash games and grind those out for alittle bit and take a break from tournament poker.  Tournament poker has successfully ripped away most of the profits i made from the main event and torn my confidence in tournament poker apart.

 Fortunately, I have been transitioning back into cash games really well and feel really good with my game right now.  I still have been struggling a little bit when i get down early in a session.  I need to keep the bad thoughts out and the good thoughts in.  I really need to keep grinding these cash games because it is the majority of my winnnings. 

Its really funny actually.. I don’t realize these things until i start writing them down in my blog and it makes me realize im an idiot for now playing whenever i have time to play.  So I know ive said it many times before.. but i really need to start blogging more because it helps me reflect on how Ive been playing and realize i truly am a winning player.  I need to have a type of revelation that matusow has had recently.  After watching him at the main event so far, he truly has changed (it didnt hurt to win a huge coinflip for all of his chips early in the tournament), but anyways optimism is a necessity in poker and I can find a way to embrace it in my poker game!