So I took another 3 day break which i seem to be doing every week because I cant seem to put together a winning session.  I just decided to play tournaments 4 at a time and see how it went.  I felt really good and comfortable at the beginning tripling up in the sunday million until I lost 3 consecutive coin flips to my end.  I then lost the sunday mulligan kk to ak.  then lost the second chance qq to a10.  In the mean time i managed to win every hand in the only 50 dollar buyin i played everything else was 200.. Seems like shit always goes this way.

So after all this bull shit my mind is completely fucked.   Im sitting in my apartment by myself because my asshole friend didnt show up like he said he would to keep me company and play with me.  So at this point throwing all these tournaments away was starting to seem like a good idea . I hav’ent played in 3 days and all i could think about was being done playing for the day.  I had 3 tournaments left which were the sunday million which I had 14k, avg 7k, a 150 buyin and 30 rebuys.  I decided to smooth call a guy with aa because i didnt think he hand was strong.. unfortunately he flopped a set and that was over.  In the sunday million which i have been playing really good in i decide to just throw it away.  So I raised with k9dd to 1100 and got called by the button.  The flop came a102 with 2 diamonds… I really have no idea why but i decided to check raise the guy and commit more then half my chips to the pot… maybe to represent a huge hand.  Anyways he re shoved all in and I regrettingly called him and he showed a6 and he had me covered some time.  I really was 100% positive i could fold out a weak ace if needed here looking at our stacks and position.  Then i went all in every hand in 30 rebuys till that was gone. This all boils down to me making a stupid decision in the main event… and that continues to fuck up my life… dont play in the main event unless you plan on final tabling it - great advice from my brother.

Since my cash at the main event my minds kind of been fucked up when it comes to poker.  I felt like I have been playing good but who knows.  I took about 5 days off after the main event then I got back in to playing 100-200 dollar sit n goes.  I was doing really well in these before the main event averaging like a 20 roi over like 400.  Its a completely different story now.  I consistanly lost at these sit n goes for like 6 sessions.. and i found myself getting fourth place a very high percentage of the time.

I couldn’t really mentally handle bubbling all these sit n goes so I decided to strictly stick to online tournaments to try to hit a big score.  Since then I have been cashing a pretty high percentage of the time but find myself coming coming up short of the final table a lot.  I think if I keep up this play I am eventually going to have a huge day to make up for my recent losses.  Although I have been cashing a lot I have been on a pretty big downswing because I struggle to go deep in the expensive buy ins, which unless I win some of the smaller tournaments I’m not gonna make up that money.  The last couple days I played though, I played like absolute shit and through away a couple thousand dollars.

Anyways I have some main event blogs still to post.  And I need to start posting more because it really does make me feel alot better when I get this information out. lates.